I'LL BE BACK (the famous terminator's words)

hmm.... back to kk now.... yeap.... back to the usual studies and all...
walao i seriously cannot eat 2night o zzz, the steamboat i ate last night was just TOO MUCH TO HANDLE... there was fried chicken wings, mee goreng, clams, prawn, crabs, yi fu, and etc .... walao i gain a few punds eating these stuffs =.=|||

well... sandakan wasnt all bad ... and i realise i CAN live without computer for 4 days XD (3 technically)... the food wasnt bad ... but the people ... like no R.E.S.P.E.C.T lolz... well i dunno la...

but then... those few days ... my mind was really on somewhere ... no mood to do anything... my thoughts in my head keeps on bugging and makes me feel uneasy...
and i just found out that i DONT really have feelings for her.... PEACE!!! @.@

the famous words of the 3 muskateers... (why they say 3 when there's 4??)

ALL FOR ONE AND ONE FOR ALL!!!!!

other words of bravery
TOGETHER WE STAND UNITED AS ONE!!!!!
ONE SHALL STAND, ONE SHALL FALL!!!!!

haha really stupid 2night.... i realise that 1 people can be really fucking annoying ... when they are really lost, down and confused.... in all circumstences... sometimes i dont get it...

yes i guess i can be stupid sometimes ... and so DAMN annoying that u will say ... MAN I FEEL LIKE KICKING THIS GUY'S BALLS!!!
its the way i am right now... i dont wanna act smart?! or show off... its so fucked up... i dont know la .... some hard decisions i have to make this few days ...

what can you do anyway... it's life... and all of us have to deal with the decisions we make and take consiquences in it...

I know that ... i made a whole lots of mistake... and i hurt lots of people... including the ones i love and care.... but somehow ... i nid some1 to tell me ... where did i go wrong? what do i nid to do to change it? ..... should i let fate rain on me so that i can know it??

i dont know... man... am i chasing false hope and dream?? .... its a burden... to watch it go away .... its like a heavy boulder dropped to my back ... and makes me wanna cry alot of times... but i hold on and remind myself.... to get up and move on the road you took along time ago ...

the road of never return.... i'm really confused now... i dont even know wat i wrote ... or wat i feel right now... the only thing in my mind now is emptiness

i think ... thats the road that i will stop half way.... and take the other road.... dont worry ... its not like i'm gonna kill myself or sth.... this i gotta decide myself... and i hope that i wont regret it....