Urrgghh.... I cant made up my mind upon where to continue my studies.... I wont be going to I.S. (my mum was suprised and my dad say dont play play =.= of course I'm not playing... I'M SERIOUS??!!) Cant they sometimes tell whether I'm serious or not? ... jesus... I'm so blur right now... I can't even make my own decisions.... If only I can see the future.."yeah keep dreaming on" thats what Jacky would tell me =.=........
I didnt choose I.S because of some reasons.... I don't know is it the right thing to do or not.... but ... it's better that way. Maybe I'll go penang with Jacky... or I go my own ways.... right now I need my father's and brother's advice.... It's the least I can do right now....
Nickelback - I'd come for you...
Just One more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing.
Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it
I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground
But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out
Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow.
By now you'd know that I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing
My mind was closing, now I'm believing
I finally know what just what it means to let someone in
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will
So if your ever lost and find yourself all alone
I'd search forever just to bring you home,
Here and now this I vow
By now you'd know that I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you
Yes I'd come for you, no one but you,
Yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you
Well.... I dont think you need me to be there for you anymore now.... because there's some1 else who loves you and he's always there with you on every problem you have.... every day, I feel we're like going apart.... It's like I dont know who you are anymore... and you dont know who am I... everytime I try to talk, chat with you... you're always busy ... or you throw me aside to the shadow.... well... I dont blame you anymore..... It's alright ... I deserved all of the damnation.....
AARRGGGHHHH I think I'm being paranoid again ... maybe you're just busy and stressed out on your SPM... NEVER MINDZZZ
Son by four - Purest of Pain
I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking
Chorus
Vida, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
That I didn't hurt when you walked away
But to tell you the truth I can't find my way
And deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Chorus (twice)
Vida, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
Signing off,
Gary
Friday, October 30, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Lifehouse - You and Me
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
Audrey didnt came 2day ... cause she wanna sleep at home (in other words, LAZY) but still can talk bout sth else la... usually if 1 of the gangs not here dunno wat to talk T.T, this morning, jacky write out the things we need to buy BEFORE going to australia. When she told us she's gonna bring a sleeping bag? (that was moral time) Me and aaron was like ... wth?? (I was thinking sending her to the morgue while she was asleep or throw her like throwing a dead body to somewhere?? XD) and yeah... nasrul said sth about want to be insaf?? and not saying *fuck* forever, but he failed... 3 times XD
yeah... jessica's birthday plan changed... to PIZZA HUT after school.... nasrul cannot go cause have to go back to kampung? for his granma funeral... (not his real granma?) so yeah... thats all I could write 2day... I still cannot forget bout her.... ciao...
Signing out,
Gary
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
Audrey didnt came 2day ... cause she wanna sleep at home (in other words, LAZY) but still can talk bout sth else la... usually if 1 of the gangs not here dunno wat to talk T.T, this morning, jacky write out the things we need to buy BEFORE going to australia. When she told us she's gonna bring a sleeping bag? (that was moral time) Me and aaron was like ... wth?? (I was thinking sending her to the morgue while she was asleep or throw her like throwing a dead body to somewhere?? XD) and yeah... nasrul said sth about want to be insaf?? and not saying *fuck* forever, but he failed... 3 times XD
yeah... jessica's birthday plan changed... to PIZZA HUT after school.... nasrul cannot go cause have to go back to kampung? for his granma funeral... (not his real granma?) so yeah... thats all I could write 2day... I still cannot forget bout her.... ciao...
Signing out,
Gary
Monday, October 26, 2009
Can i live without you? ....
Celine Dion - How do I live without you...
How do I get thru one
night without you,
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be.
Oh and I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul.
If you ever leave
Baby, you would take away
Everything good in my life.
Without you there'd be
no sun in my sky.
There would be no love in my life.
There'd be no world left for me
And I, baby I don't know
what I would do.
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I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby, you would take away
Everything real in my life
And tell me now......
How do I live without you?
I want to know.
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I
Oh, how do I live?
If you ever leave.
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby, 'cause you know that you're
Everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go.
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I
Oh, how do I live
How do I live without you, baby?
I dont think I could live without you.... It's like you're part of my life already from the very beginning I met you... Of all the other girls... ( I got some gf before also la ) but ... the feeling ba ... lasted 2 or 3 months... but then... 2 years?? wtf I think I'm being so lifeless... right now... its best I just be your teddy bear.... thats all... and I want you to know... that I'll always be there for you....
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy Bear
How do I get thru one
night without you,
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be.
Oh and I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul.
If you ever leave
Baby, you would take away
Everything good in my life.
Without you there'd be
no sun in my sky.
There would be no love in my life.
There'd be no world left for me
And I, baby I don't know
what I would do.
[ Lyrics provided by www.mp3lyrics.org ]
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby, you would take away
Everything real in my life
And tell me now......
How do I live without you?
I want to know.
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I
Oh, how do I live?
If you ever leave.
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby, 'cause you know that you're
Everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go.
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I
Oh, how do I live
How do I live without you, baby?
I dont think I could live without you.... It's like you're part of my life already from the very beginning I met you... Of all the other girls... ( I got some gf before also la ) but ... the feeling ba ... lasted 2 or 3 months... but then... 2 years?? wtf I think I'm being so lifeless... right now... its best I just be your teddy bear.... thats all... and I want you to know... that I'll always be there for you....
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy Bear
Sunday, October 25, 2009
What is right and what is not....
I cant tell wat I do now is right or wrong.... it seems like everything I did was right... but its wrong to most of friends... I dont know ... I guess I wasn't clever enough to do the right thing.... Its now out of my hands now.... I guess backing out now is not an option...
3 Doors Down - Here without you
A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don�t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I�m dreaming of your face
I�m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it�s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go
I�m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it�s only you and me
Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won�t take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it�s all said and done
it get hard but it won�t take away my love
I�m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it�s only you and me
I'll just let everything be for now... It's SPM... I dont want to put any tension to you or myself...
Signing off,
Gary aka ... Teddy bear who get wat he deserves.... sorrowness and pain...
3 Doors Down - Here without you
A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don�t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I�m dreaming of your face
I�m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it�s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go
I�m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it�s only you and me
Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won�t take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it�s all said and done
it get hard but it won�t take away my love
I�m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it�s only you and me
I'll just let everything be for now... It's SPM... I dont want to put any tension to you or myself...
Signing off,
Gary aka ... Teddy bear who get wat he deserves.... sorrowness and pain...
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Forgetting all of it
Simple plan - How can this happen to me...
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I'm laying here tonight
And I can’t STAND the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t STAND the pain
*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
(just putting this song for fun)
Haha ... after you answered my questions ... I finnaly understand it... thanks for answering me truthfully.... I'm neither sad nor down... I'm glad u did answer me =), and dont worry ... I wont steal the bride from the groom anymore.... haha samson, if you're reading this, then I dont need any freaking church or watsoever religous teaching or spiritual mumbo jumbo, I got the answer I was expecting and I'm totaly free from my pain now... ^_^
And yeah... I'm still thinking of that ... 10 years curse of not dating or love any girls and guys... (I aint gay and I'm not bisexual like nasrul =.=|||)
CAPISH?(meaning OKAY?) oh and audrey... I still think u should be an office girls... NOT that I'm underestimating u but... well... bahhhh if I say more l8r marah me lagi tu ~.~, your own decision la =P
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I'm laying here tonight
And I can’t STAND the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t STAND the pain
*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
*CHORUS*
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
(just putting this song for fun)
Haha ... after you answered my questions ... I finnaly understand it... thanks for answering me truthfully.... I'm neither sad nor down... I'm glad u did answer me =), and dont worry ... I wont steal the bride from the groom anymore.... haha samson, if you're reading this, then I dont need any freaking church or watsoever religous teaching or spiritual mumbo jumbo, I got the answer I was expecting and I'm totaly free from my pain now... ^_^
And yeah... I'm still thinking of that ... 10 years curse of not dating or love any girls and guys... (I aint gay and I'm not bisexual like nasrul =.=|||)
CAPISH?(meaning OKAY?) oh and audrey... I still think u should be an office girls... NOT that I'm underestimating u but... well... bahhhh if I say more l8r marah me lagi tu ~.~, your own decision la =P
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
HELL!!!!!!
GARRRRRRR these few days I can't even concentrate or study well !! SHIT OH!!!!! I also don't know why ... *TELL ME WHYYYYYY IS SO HARD TO FORGET, DONT REMIND MEEEEEE*
LOLZ 2day got that sejarah ceramah thinggy.... guess most of us never pay attention to it since we want to FAIL sejarah instead of.... getting A+ on sej??? (if I really pass this sejarah ... some1 give me a gun to shoot myself) ...
Goo Goo Dolls - I just want you to know who I am
And I’d give up forever to touch you
‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
‘Cause sooner or later it’s
just don’t want to miss you tonight
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everythïng’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I dont know why I've been finding old songs these few days... must have some connection on it to my feelings ... I'm confused... OH, I forgot 1 more thing... at the hall the teacher on that song ... Miley Cryus- THE CLIMB!!!!!!!!!! Then I dont know WHO THE HELL keep singing it after the the ceramah ... *its the climb~~~ its the climb~~ its the... STFU LAAA B!TCH* ( the fan po from other class ) stupiak...
The new drama... * BORN RICH* looks nice.... wanna watch it... cause got some scene from KK, sabah... haha now that sabah is also a place to film .... like my brother said... maybe and I meant MAYBE, next time, bollywood or hollywood will come to shoot their movies here... and this place will be famous... haha guess that will happen after we all died (wtf am I saying)
Signing out,
Gary aka teddy bear
LOLZ 2day got that sejarah ceramah thinggy.... guess most of us never pay attention to it since we want to FAIL sejarah instead of.... getting A+ on sej??? (if I really pass this sejarah ... some1 give me a gun to shoot myself) ...
Goo Goo Dolls - I just want you to know who I am
And I’d give up forever to touch you
‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
‘Cause sooner or later it’s
just don’t want to miss you tonight
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everythïng’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I dont know why I've been finding old songs these few days... must have some connection on it to my feelings ... I'm confused... OH, I forgot 1 more thing... at the hall the teacher on that song ... Miley Cryus- THE CLIMB!!!!!!!!!! Then I dont know WHO THE HELL keep singing it after the the ceramah ... *its the climb~~~ its the climb~~ its the... STFU LAAA B!TCH* ( the fan po from other class ) stupiak...
The new drama... * BORN RICH* looks nice.... wanna watch it... cause got some scene from KK, sabah... haha now that sabah is also a place to film .... like my brother said... maybe and I meant MAYBE, next time, bollywood or hollywood will come to shoot their movies here... and this place will be famous... haha guess that will happen after we all died (wtf am I saying)
Signing out,
Gary aka teddy bear
Sunday, October 18, 2009
MEDIC!!!!!!
I think I really need a doctor ... or a pshycologist.... (whatever its called...) I AM TOO OBSESSED @.@.... okay .. don't panic... its not the end of the world right?? I mean its not that serious right??? (oh shyt, I'm panicking....)
AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
holy shit... I'm really going loco .... DDDDDAAAAAAMMMMMMMM
I NEED TO TRAVEL THE WHOLE WORLD @.@
lolz just now Audrey told me she want to work at an office... I was thinking office girl ... for starters, to get some experience ba... and yeah suddenly she asked me if she can work at my dad's office... LOLZ I was about to said that, when she herself said it... so yeah.. see 1st la... I have to take over the office 1 day.... (its not world wide... but maybe it will be soon, XD) I got alot to learn too .... If I can't go college or uni (or maybe I dont wanna) ... Then I'll work at my dad's office.... hmm... and yeah .. job is open for you Audrey... so feel free to stop by if you wanna work and get some experiences
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy bear ( still dont think its right )
AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
holy shit... I'm really going loco .... DDDDDAAAAAAMMMMMMMM
I NEED TO TRAVEL THE WHOLE WORLD @.@
lolz just now Audrey told me she want to work at an office... I was thinking office girl ... for starters, to get some experience ba... and yeah suddenly she asked me if she can work at my dad's office... LOLZ I was about to said that, when she herself said it... so yeah.. see 1st la... I have to take over the office 1 day.... (its not world wide... but maybe it will be soon, XD) I got alot to learn too .... If I can't go college or uni (or maybe I dont wanna) ... Then I'll work at my dad's office.... hmm... and yeah .. job is open for you Audrey... so feel free to stop by if you wanna work and get some experiences
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy bear ( still dont think its right )
Here we are again...
Lolz.. I've been smsing with some folks and ask them of their plan for next year... most of them want to go overseas study... some work with their fathers, others ... well, HAVE FUN 1ST THEN PLAN... (wtf) it couldnt get anymore worse than that... right?
(This is a note to everyone and myself)
Ask yourself this... If you were to make a decision... would you listen to that person, OR do what your heart and instincts tells you to do? Its not about if you're weak in choosing or whatsoever... sure you can ask others for advices and help... but its important if you think its the right decision to make... and that decision have to be FINAL... you cant just think "oh wait, I made my mind"!! if its final then its FINAL. I'm telling this to everyone who read this ... to think before you choose.... or that decision would be your final act and it will ... and I mean it WILL hurt you and to ANYONE else.... You wouldnt want that ... would ya now?
Here I am ... yapping, bullshitting all the crap I said... why?? because NO ONE WOULD LISTEN A WORD I SAID!!! I MEAN NO ONE!!!
I know... I'm having an unstable mood again... dont feel like writing anymore... ciao...
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy bear
(This is a note to everyone and myself)
Ask yourself this... If you were to make a decision... would you listen to that person, OR do what your heart and instincts tells you to do? Its not about if you're weak in choosing or whatsoever... sure you can ask others for advices and help... but its important if you think its the right decision to make... and that decision have to be FINAL... you cant just think "oh wait, I made my mind"!! if its final then its FINAL. I'm telling this to everyone who read this ... to think before you choose.... or that decision would be your final act and it will ... and I mean it WILL hurt you and to ANYONE else.... You wouldnt want that ... would ya now?
Here I am ... yapping, bullshitting all the crap I said... why?? because NO ONE WOULD LISTEN A WORD I SAID!!! I MEAN NO ONE!!!
I know... I'm having an unstable mood again... dont feel like writing anymore... ciao...
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy bear
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Things got complicated
Wth... I may say it once and I may it a hundred times ... WTH LA. For these past few days is really confusing la... I also dunno wat am I doing (unconsious mind ... so I dunno wat to do) ... Ferik, I pray and wish for your grandmother to get well soon... sorry I didnt ask why u didnt came to school... I was blurry that time...
Great... 1st of all I dont know what is going on with the gangs.... and 2nd, they having problems again... 3rd and finnaly, I've been having some heart pain... no nothing to do with love or sth like that... DAM I really must go to gym after SPM... or I'll end up dead... just like uncle bob...( who's bob? )
Clay aiken - Invisible
Whatcha? doin? tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive
[Chorus]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
[Chorus]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...
[Repeat Chorus]
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
yeah... I wish I was, so I can see what you doing now.... funny ... I cant stop thinking about you no matter what... It doesnt affect my studies or anything... but kinda miss you.... =X...
and yeah ... SORRY to those who invite me to check out the education fair... I didnt went there cause need to help my parents do stock check on the office... >.<
Aerosmith- I dont wanna close my eyes
could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,
(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep,
Cause I'd miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do,
I'd still miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.
Lying close to you,
feeling your heart beating,
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing,
And then I kiss your eyes,
And thank God we're together,
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever,
Forever and ever.
(Chorus)
And I don't wanna miss one smile,
I don't wanna miss one kiss,
I just wanna be with you,
Right here with you, just like this,
Well I just wanna hold you close,
And feel your heart so close to mine,
And just stay here in this moment,
For all the rest of time
Yeah (yeah) yeah (yeah) yeah
(Chorus repeated 2 times)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
This song is my feelings to you >.< ... cause me some problem to find it -.- but its worth everything...
man ... after SPM I'm sure to learn how to play some music instruments... guitar? eg(electric guitar), drum, piano(no waaaayyyyy), saksafon(I love this instrument) and etc etc
Great... 1st of all I dont know what is going on with the gangs.... and 2nd, they having problems again... 3rd and finnaly, I've been having some heart pain... no nothing to do with love or sth like that... DAM I really must go to gym after SPM... or I'll end up dead... just like uncle bob...( who's bob? )
Clay aiken - Invisible
Whatcha? doin? tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive
[Chorus]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
[Chorus]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...
[Repeat Chorus]
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
yeah... I wish I was, so I can see what you doing now.... funny ... I cant stop thinking about you no matter what... It doesnt affect my studies or anything... but kinda miss you.... =X...
and yeah ... SORRY to those who invite me to check out the education fair... I didnt went there cause need to help my parents do stock check on the office... >.<
Aerosmith- I dont wanna close my eyes
could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,
(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep,
Cause I'd miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do,
I'd still miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.
Lying close to you,
feeling your heart beating,
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing,
And then I kiss your eyes,
And thank God we're together,
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever,
Forever and ever.
(Chorus)
And I don't wanna miss one smile,
I don't wanna miss one kiss,
I just wanna be with you,
Right here with you, just like this,
Well I just wanna hold you close,
And feel your heart so close to mine,
And just stay here in this moment,
For all the rest of time
Yeah (yeah) yeah (yeah) yeah
(Chorus repeated 2 times)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
This song is my feelings to you >.< ... cause me some problem to find it -.- but its worth everything...
man ... after SPM I'm sure to learn how to play some music instruments... guitar? eg(electric guitar), drum, piano(no waaaayyyyy), saksafon(I love this instrument) and etc etc
Friday, October 16, 2009
Quick post..
Okay I'm gonna write all this in just 10 minutes time so...
Yeah.. I've been fine for these few days... but the problems come and go as they please.... arrghh save it...
Well 2 days ago... I went to toilet with ricky... we talked awhile... and he notice I have a problem... so I told him some of my problems... and he gave me quite an advice ... and pondok just now he gave me another advices... yeah... I think he's right about it.... I should forget about it.... eventhough we didnt talk to each other always... he is a nice person (so called gay person) XD thanks alot !
My result for pp2 ...
Maths = 32/40 (still incomplete)
Bm = 29/100 ( OMGGGGGG DIE )
BI = 43/75 (terrible ... but better than last time I emo)
Sej (not yet)
Akaun (not yet)
Pdg (not yet)
Eko (not yet)
Science (not yet)
Add maths = 26/100 (T.T my 14 mark gone to dust, FUCK)
Well this is my current results... I doubt any1 would care or look at it, XD, just post for fun....
Hmm... this is all I have to write gotta run!!
Love my gangs and orphan. XD
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear.
Yeah.. I've been fine for these few days... but the problems come and go as they please.... arrghh save it...
Well 2 days ago... I went to toilet with ricky... we talked awhile... and he notice I have a problem... so I told him some of my problems... and he gave me quite an advice ... and pondok just now he gave me another advices... yeah... I think he's right about it.... I should forget about it.... eventhough we didnt talk to each other always... he is a nice person (so called gay person) XD thanks alot !
My result for pp2 ...
Maths = 32/40 (still incomplete)
Bm = 29/100 ( OMGGGGGG DIE )
BI = 43/75 (terrible ... but better than last time I emo)
Sej (not yet)
Akaun (not yet)
Pdg (not yet)
Eko (not yet)
Science (not yet)
Add maths = 26/100 (T.T my 14 mark gone to dust, FUCK)
Well this is my current results... I doubt any1 would care or look at it, XD, just post for fun....
Hmm... this is all I have to write gotta run!!
Love my gangs and orphan. XD
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
days without you...
David Cook -Always be my baby
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....
You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always be my baby.
Second looks like minutes...
minutes looks like hours...
hours looks like days...
days looks like months...
months looks years....
and a year without u is like waiting for u for eternity...
Love is so complicated... isn't it? well according to experts.. love can make your life go easier.. or so to say make your life simple... it decreases your stress level, makes you feel alive, luckiest man/woman on the planet (everybody says that when they think they found their true love) but it also proves that sometimes love can be turned to a nightmare... obession, lust, anger, sadness, and etc... and you might think that you're doing sth to prove to her that you care.. but instead you're hurting yourself... even if he/she's your best friend, you wouldnt want to fight with him/her to steal the ones you love.... it would just cause agony and pain... but no matter what cost it has... you'll always let him/her know that you'll be at his/her side no matter what and you wouldnt want to break down easily... you have to fight to handle it sometimes.... (hmmm its like a note for myself... since i'm falling for someone else XD)
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear.
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....
You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always be my baby.
Second looks like minutes...
minutes looks like hours...
hours looks like days...
days looks like months...
months looks years....
and a year without u is like waiting for u for eternity...
Love is so complicated... isn't it? well according to experts.. love can make your life go easier.. or so to say make your life simple... it decreases your stress level, makes you feel alive, luckiest man/woman on the planet (everybody says that when they think they found their true love) but it also proves that sometimes love can be turned to a nightmare... obession, lust, anger, sadness, and etc... and you might think that you're doing sth to prove to her that you care.. but instead you're hurting yourself... even if he/she's your best friend, you wouldnt want to fight with him/her to steal the ones you love.... it would just cause agony and pain... but no matter what cost it has... you'll always let him/her know that you'll be at his/her side no matter what and you wouldnt want to break down easily... you have to fight to handle it sometimes.... (hmmm its like a note for myself... since i'm falling for someone else XD)
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Crazzzzyyyyyyyyyyyy
LOLZ MY SECOND POST AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO PUT!!! SO I'M GONNA PUT STUPID STUFFS!!!! @.@...........................................................
Hmmm...... 1st things 1st.... still counting down spm... 38 DAYS TO GO FOR SPM... (Audrey, u miscounted 2 days behind lolz) after spm... GO TAKE DRIVING LICENSE, GO TO WORK AT MY FATHERS OFFICE!!, HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS ... AAANNNNNDDDD so on... haha, wow I'm proud of myself... this few weeks or days didnt play computer at all... ( thats because my computer is not fixed =.=||| and the laptop is in pieces now... so yeah using my uncle's ) but... if internet and all... I cannot resist!!! temptation..... fuck.... just like girls... they cant resist shopping new stuff and all, thats why its call TEMPTATION!!! ... not lust XD, lust is for guys and girls doing you know what... XD
Well after exercising with the trackmile... and do some sit ups... I feel much better and relaxed now ( although its tiring ...) buuutt it really pays off... okay... hmm.... one things for sure... if Jessica started a husband-list ... I should make a wife-list... XD but I dont know WHO TO START!!! AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH @.@ maybe the girls from my class... or some leng lui at other class... OORR college girls... (damn PLS DONT LET THE CURSE WORK ON ME!!!) either way I'm still feeling lonely T.T
Hmm... I'm slowly and slowly... AANNNDD slowly..... controling my emotions... guess the soul in me have not fully gotten out yet.... I not say I want to be heartless or whatsoever.... I'm talking about moving on with my DAMN life....
Well I've make my decision ... and decide to take the other road... that road I've taken a long time ago... I'm done with it... I'm moving on with the other 1.... Hope it wont be the biggest mistake of my life....
BUT HEELLLLLLLLLL I WANT GET HIGGGGHHHHHHHHH XXXXXXXDDDDDDDDDDDD LOLZ WTH IS WRONG WITH ME???!!!
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy Bear
Hmmm...... 1st things 1st.... still counting down spm... 38 DAYS TO GO FOR SPM... (Audrey, u miscounted 2 days behind lolz) after spm... GO TAKE DRIVING LICENSE, GO TO WORK AT MY FATHERS OFFICE!!, HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS ... AAANNNNNDDDD so on... haha, wow I'm proud of myself... this few weeks or days didnt play computer at all... ( thats because my computer is not fixed =.=||| and the laptop is in pieces now... so yeah using my uncle's ) but... if internet and all... I cannot resist!!! temptation..... fuck.... just like girls... they cant resist shopping new stuff and all, thats why its call TEMPTATION!!! ... not lust XD, lust is for guys and girls doing you know what... XD
Well after exercising with the trackmile... and do some sit ups... I feel much better and relaxed now ( although its tiring ...) buuutt it really pays off... okay... hmm.... one things for sure... if Jessica started a husband-list ... I should make a wife-list... XD but I dont know WHO TO START!!! AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH @.@ maybe the girls from my class... or some leng lui at other class... OORR college girls... (damn PLS DONT LET THE CURSE WORK ON ME!!!) either way I'm still feeling lonely T.T
Hmm... I'm slowly and slowly... AANNNDD slowly..... controling my emotions... guess the soul in me have not fully gotten out yet.... I not say I want to be heartless or whatsoever.... I'm talking about moving on with my DAMN life....
Well I've make my decision ... and decide to take the other road... that road I've taken a long time ago... I'm done with it... I'm moving on with the other 1.... Hope it wont be the biggest mistake of my life....
BUT HEELLLLLLLLLL I WANT GET HIGGGGHHHHHHHHH XXXXXXXDDDDDDDDDDDD LOLZ WTH IS WRONG WITH ME???!!!
Signing off,
Gary aka Teddy Bear
XDDDDDD
Lolz I cannot possibly type it 1 million time like u said... but....
I LOVE ORPHAN ( TO THE POWER OF INFINITY ) XXXXXXDDDDDDDD
ROFLMAOMGAWDAMNATIONICE!!!!! XD
HAHA I'M GOLAGILA ALREADY!!!!!!!! @.@.@.@.@ WWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HIGH ON CRACKS AND COCCAINES!!!! @.@ BLLLEEHHHHHH!!!! XD
1st things 1st ... hmm... wat am I suppose to start... well, I alreadi explain to orphan and said sorry to her... ( I NEVER WILL DUMP UUUUUUUUU ) and yeah... another problem solved... NO OTHER PROBS CAME...only add maths need to pass up 2mr ... zzz MALAS LAAAA.
so yeah.... I'm speechless *GASPING FOR AIR* and the reason I write those ... err... not gonna be here in the future?? ... is because I fear for death... You see... I dont know what sickness I have in my body... but it rarely hurts la... that day on thursday... I felt it again... right in my heart... I dont know what is it... and I dont want any1 to worry ba... sudah lah my father got heart problem now... and yet... I'm having it at a young age?? (god I really need to cut some weight after SPM) ... I'm still confident ... but worried at the same time... because I dont know if everytime I wake up... I would live to see the next day... or see the light again...
So I dont hope for anything.... I just wanna be happy now and do sth in my life...
Signing off,
Gary aka (still officially orphans teddy bear)
XD
I LOVE ORPHAN ( TO THE POWER OF INFINITY ) XXXXXXDDDDDDDD
ROFLMAOMGAWDAMNATIONICE!!!!! XD
HAHA I'M GOLAGILA ALREADY!!!!!!!! @.@.@.@.@ WWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HIGH ON CRACKS AND COCCAINES!!!! @.@ BLLLEEHHHHHH!!!! XD
1st things 1st ... hmm... wat am I suppose to start... well, I alreadi explain to orphan and said sorry to her... ( I NEVER WILL DUMP UUUUUUUUU ) and yeah... another problem solved... NO OTHER PROBS CAME...only add maths need to pass up 2mr ... zzz MALAS LAAAA.
so yeah.... I'm speechless *GASPING FOR AIR* and the reason I write those ... err... not gonna be here in the future?? ... is because I fear for death... You see... I dont know what sickness I have in my body... but it rarely hurts la... that day on thursday... I felt it again... right in my heart... I dont know what is it... and I dont want any1 to worry ba... sudah lah my father got heart problem now... and yet... I'm having it at a young age?? (god I really need to cut some weight after SPM) ... I'm still confident ... but worried at the same time... because I dont know if everytime I wake up... I would live to see the next day... or see the light again...
So I dont hope for anything.... I just wanna be happy now and do sth in my life...
Signing off,
Gary aka (still officially orphans teddy bear)
XD
Saturday, October 10, 2009
God knows what happen...
Just now audrey have a major breakdown because of the guy she likes for a longgg time do sth to hurt her (I dont know wat happen because she wont tell me and neither her nor jacky would tell me WHO THE HELL IS THAT GUY =.=|||) luckly I send some messages to her just to advice her... (I hope it works) and that she says she's fine but still sad (I dont knnnoooowwww hmm...) and I still wanna laugh my ass off because of nasrul and jacky's letter that they wrote to me... lolz u guys.... I'm fine bbbbaaaahhhhh.
Well just now have a lil chat with jacky ... she sms with this hot guy?? and I reply to her *that hot guy is gonna lose his balls, the next time he sees you* XD lolzz beats me... yeah and thanks jacky for spending your time talking with me on some stupid and empty stuffs.... I feel better now XD
Lolz ... I really cant believe I'm doing this to myself... I've cursed myself not to have any girls FOR THE NEXT 10 YEARS AND IT REALLY HAPPENS??? FFFUUUCCKKKK!!!! but... yeah... I dont even wan have any girls ... AND BOYS (dont even think about me getting into guys pants) I just want 1 thing only... A DOG !!!!!!!! WOOF, man's best friend...
Why I want a dog rather than going to find any1 to love?? because I dont want to have another heartbreak and watsoever stuffs.... I'm done with it. I dont want to know about what happens next, I dont wanna know ANYTHING.
and yeah... Jessica... I will keep the promise you told me b4... just dont forget about me okay?? and yeah... I make sure that present reach to your hand. yeah... I dont know if I'll be here the next time ... so ... lolz wtf am I trying to say zzz I WONT DIE GAAARRRRR!!!! I WONT GIVE IN TO IT !!!!!!! FUCK IT!!!!!
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear (......)
Well just now have a lil chat with jacky ... she sms with this hot guy?? and I reply to her *that hot guy is gonna lose his balls, the next time he sees you* XD lolzz beats me... yeah and thanks jacky for spending your time talking with me on some stupid and empty stuffs.... I feel better now XD
Lolz ... I really cant believe I'm doing this to myself... I've cursed myself not to have any girls FOR THE NEXT 10 YEARS AND IT REALLY HAPPENS??? FFFUUUCCKKKK!!!! but... yeah... I dont even wan have any girls ... AND BOYS (dont even think about me getting into guys pants) I just want 1 thing only... A DOG !!!!!!!! WOOF, man's best friend...
Why I want a dog rather than going to find any1 to love?? because I dont want to have another heartbreak and watsoever stuffs.... I'm done with it. I dont want to know about what happens next, I dont wanna know ANYTHING.
and yeah... Jessica... I will keep the promise you told me b4... just dont forget about me okay?? and yeah... I make sure that present reach to your hand. yeah... I dont know if I'll be here the next time ... so ... lolz wtf am I trying to say zzz I WONT DIE GAAARRRRR!!!! I WONT GIVE IN TO IT !!!!!!! FUCK IT!!!!!
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear (......)
I wonder why...
Damn .... sorry everybody... I had an unstable moment just now.... now I'm okay after hearing some musics, study, and play 1 round of dota =P.
Well.... This morning I dont know why la... I sat at the couch, drinking milo, and watch AXN, and all the sudden at the dining room, my mum and dad have a fight, I dont know why or what r they fighting again... haiz... I dont care about it... when it was noon, my mum told me that my dad have a heart problem... I was shocked to hear it... she say maybe 1 or 2 years he cannot work anymore... I guess... I wont be going to any college or university then... I need to help my dad with the office work... if not, who would take care of the shop when he's gone? ... I now regret all the things I did to him.... we werent close ... and I never did my job as a son.... This time I wont let him down... I will try my best to help him ... as he have sacrificed alot for me...
the other problem is my personal prob.... I dont wanna tell to any1 about it...
I dont know why... there's a sound in my head that keeps bugging me... distracting me from anything.... I hear an echo... but cant hear what is it... I maybe losing my mind ... or I'm just paranoid...
come on man... that thing have just past on... why cant u just forget it and move on?? you wana stay broken all the time and sit down there like a baby?? GROW UP LAA!!!! ( note to myself ) haiz... but I just cant seem to forget it.... well.... let's just see what happens next...
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear (HHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMM)
Well.... This morning I dont know why la... I sat at the couch, drinking milo, and watch AXN, and all the sudden at the dining room, my mum and dad have a fight, I dont know why or what r they fighting again... haiz... I dont care about it... when it was noon, my mum told me that my dad have a heart problem... I was shocked to hear it... she say maybe 1 or 2 years he cannot work anymore... I guess... I wont be going to any college or university then... I need to help my dad with the office work... if not, who would take care of the shop when he's gone? ... I now regret all the things I did to him.... we werent close ... and I never did my job as a son.... This time I wont let him down... I will try my best to help him ... as he have sacrificed alot for me...
the other problem is my personal prob.... I dont wanna tell to any1 about it...
I dont know why... there's a sound in my head that keeps bugging me... distracting me from anything.... I hear an echo... but cant hear what is it... I maybe losing my mind ... or I'm just paranoid...
come on man... that thing have just past on... why cant u just forget it and move on?? you wana stay broken all the time and sit down there like a baby?? GROW UP LAA!!!! ( note to myself ) haiz... but I just cant seem to forget it.... well.... let's just see what happens next...
Signing off,
Gary aka teddy bear (HHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMM)
If tommorow was your last day...
NO NO I'm not talking about the song that nickleback made... well the song have some meanings la... but seriously WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF 2MR WAS YOUR LAST DAY??? pls answer here if u guys wanna XD...
Well if for me I would do all the things I wanted to do is...( too much so I cut to the chase ) go marry the girl I loved, met with old friends, go have sex at public (fuck that is so wrong), and etcsssss .... haha
AND I'M FINE THANK YOU, SO U GUYS DONT NEED TO WORRY OR GIVE ME ADVICES, OKAY??!!
I feel like a lil child~~~ whose life have just begun ~~ you came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine ~~~ you threw out the life line ~~ just in the nick of time *SCREAAAMMMMSSSSS*
If any of you read this you should listen to this song David Archuleta - YOU CAN. that songs tells my feelings okay??
great... yesterday I got caught by my mum on going to cyber T.T but luckily I told her I check on internet, so she let me go and I managed to get away with it this time XD ( I know I know... 39 days to go... thats my last cyber visits... ) now is just at home... check facebook, blog... study ... and watch tv... hmmm....
lolz ... I should be sleeping now =.=||| ... cause 5 hours left for me to sleep and then go account tuition... well it aint the 1st time I did this XD.
I'm just glad and happy that some people's are finally going to be close together now... especially my parents and my friends. Yeap... finally... guess my role here is done after all, some of you would think that I'm really happy about it, and some of you would think I'm still sad about it... but you may never know =P cause I'm full of mystery and have 5 faces in myself... so you guys would never know if I'm telling the turth or lies, or how I feel now. Maybe it was all just pretend? like those drama? or maybe it's real... so think about it when you guys said sth to me, will ya?
Signing out
Gary aka Teddy Bear (hmmm...)
Well if for me I would do all the things I wanted to do is...( too much so I cut to the chase ) go marry the girl I loved, met with old friends, go have sex at public (fuck that is so wrong), and etcsssss .... haha
AND I'M FINE THANK YOU, SO U GUYS DONT NEED TO WORRY OR GIVE ME ADVICES, OKAY??!!
I feel like a lil child~~~ whose life have just begun ~~ you came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine ~~~ you threw out the life line ~~ just in the nick of time *SCREAAAMMMMSSSSS*
If any of you read this you should listen to this song David Archuleta - YOU CAN. that songs tells my feelings okay??
great... yesterday I got caught by my mum on going to cyber T.T but luckily I told her I check on internet, so she let me go and I managed to get away with it this time XD ( I know I know... 39 days to go... thats my last cyber visits... ) now is just at home... check facebook, blog... study ... and watch tv... hmmm....
lolz ... I should be sleeping now =.=||| ... cause 5 hours left for me to sleep and then go account tuition... well it aint the 1st time I did this XD.
I'm just glad and happy that some people's are finally going to be close together now... especially my parents and my friends. Yeap... finally... guess my role here is done after all, some of you would think that I'm really happy about it, and some of you would think I'm still sad about it... but you may never know =P cause I'm full of mystery and have 5 faces in myself... so you guys would never know if I'm telling the turth or lies, or how I feel now. Maybe it was all just pretend? like those drama? or maybe it's real... so think about it when you guys said sth to me, will ya?
Signing out
Gary aka Teddy Bear (hmmm...)
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
........
Well .... to start I dont know what to write... so I'm gonna write some stuff POINTLESSLY (is there a word for this?)
Haiz... lots of stuffs keep bugging me on my head ... and my heart... I know, I know, I know it myself... I'm hurt but not down... Its just 1 stab of needle on my heart... there's lots of stabs in it for the past years... feeling betrayed, upset, break ups, I've may have been hurt alot of times... but I was never down with it... if the next time, you look at me and that you THINK that I look down and out ... think again... I'm not that weak okay? I dont care wat other people think of me or say about me... great... I'm starting to babble again... Haiz.
I admit ... if chui did told you about my past ... it was freakingly hilarous and stupid! but... yeah that time I was unstable on everything ... when primary 6, my mind was like a ... 4 year old kid... hell after entering lok yuk school... form 1 to 3 ... it really changed me.
Well... seems like there are those who dont need me anymore... I guess my job here is done... I played the devil ... and I did it with good intensions... I didnt say that it hurts me.... but I started it... and some1 have to write a happy ending right? ... That moment... that month ... I will never forget what I did or wat decisions I made... I'm not say I'm happy about it NOR I said I'm sad about it... just maybe all this while ... its all in my thoughts...
I guess that death maybe around the corner sometimes... no I'm not talking about suicide or other peoples... but something hit me... let's just say I'm paranoid... but ... I just got a hunch... that death would hit me one of these days... not late, not too early... I guess I wont get a chance to travel around the world then... or find some1 else... HAHAHAHA....
Thats about it.... I think...
Signing off
Gary.
Haiz... lots of stuffs keep bugging me on my head ... and my heart... I know, I know, I know it myself... I'm hurt but not down... Its just 1 stab of needle on my heart... there's lots of stabs in it for the past years... feeling betrayed, upset, break ups, I've may have been hurt alot of times... but I was never down with it... if the next time, you look at me and that you THINK that I look down and out ... think again... I'm not that weak okay? I dont care wat other people think of me or say about me... great... I'm starting to babble again... Haiz.
I admit ... if chui did told you about my past ... it was freakingly hilarous and stupid! but... yeah that time I was unstable on everything ... when primary 6, my mind was like a ... 4 year old kid... hell after entering lok yuk school... form 1 to 3 ... it really changed me.
Well... seems like there are those who dont need me anymore... I guess my job here is done... I played the devil ... and I did it with good intensions... I didnt say that it hurts me.... but I started it... and some1 have to write a happy ending right? ... That moment... that month ... I will never forget what I did or wat decisions I made... I'm not say I'm happy about it NOR I said I'm sad about it... just maybe all this while ... its all in my thoughts...
I guess that death maybe around the corner sometimes... no I'm not talking about suicide or other peoples... but something hit me... let's just say I'm paranoid... but ... I just got a hunch... that death would hit me one of these days... not late, not too early... I guess I wont get a chance to travel around the world then... or find some1 else... HAHAHAHA....
Thats about it.... I think...
Signing off
Gary.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
bloody hell... i'm such a dimwit...
LOLZ, yeah I admit.. I'm a fucking, sarcastic, mother loving piece of shitholer!!!! (I can't believe I'm saying this)
Yeap... I dont know why le... I keep asking the same question on every1 I asked.. and I get a different answer ... but same meaning ... MOVE ON, GET A NEW LIFE, PLAY MORE DOTA THAN THAT ( thanks alot =.=" ), WATCH HAM PIAN (no thanks ... its been 1 year I didnt watch it... sort of XD)
Damn ... account 2day was H.A.R.D. ... I dont remember all those .... haiz... spm counting down ... 4+ days left... then we all hang out together and then ... move on our own seperate ways... WHO KNOWS, maybe 1 day we will meet together, some will be still single... some will be married or engaged... and ... you know the rest...
When that day comes ... and we go our own ways... remember NO matter what happens you'll all always be my best FRIENDS!!!!
Yup... after I watch that drama I realised something... crying and looking down doesnt solve anything... if things didnt go as plan ... you just have to be strong and look on your future... go on with life.... and maybe you'll meet again one day... and find the one you treasure the most... (I'm talking to myself)
Hmm.... jacky said to me yesterday... " LET'S GO BALI!!! " lolz.... wth la.... go bali for wat...
pfft.... so its true then... when u tell a lie for a 100 times... they will believe your words... I dont know if I may able to lie to myself or all of you... I dont wanna lie... but some lies are meant for a good reason ... and bad 1 ...
Yeap... I dont know why le... I keep asking the same question on every1 I asked.. and I get a different answer ... but same meaning ... MOVE ON, GET A NEW LIFE, PLAY MORE DOTA THAN THAT ( thanks alot =.=" ), WATCH HAM PIAN (no thanks ... its been 1 year I didnt watch it... sort of XD)
Damn ... account 2day was H.A.R.D. ... I dont remember all those .... haiz... spm counting down ... 4+ days left... then we all hang out together and then ... move on our own seperate ways... WHO KNOWS, maybe 1 day we will meet together, some will be still single... some will be married or engaged... and ... you know the rest...
When that day comes ... and we go our own ways... remember NO matter what happens you'll all always be my best FRIENDS!!!!
Yup... after I watch that drama I realised something... crying and looking down doesnt solve anything... if things didnt go as plan ... you just have to be strong and look on your future... go on with life.... and maybe you'll meet again one day... and find the one you treasure the most... (I'm talking to myself)
Hmm.... jacky said to me yesterday... " LET'S GO BALI!!! " lolz.... wth la.... go bali for wat...
pfft.... so its true then... when u tell a lie for a 100 times... they will believe your words... I dont know if I may able to lie to myself or all of you... I dont wanna lie... but some lies are meant for a good reason ... and bad 1 ...
Sunday, October 4, 2009
The World can be cruel on everyone...
Hmm... I dont know about this... but I feel like I'm getting tired of this... I thought if I go out from the lil box I once live in... I might able to feel free.. and no doubt .. get a better life than just sit at home .. watching tv, playing computer ... It's not that I dont WANT to get out and have fun... but in reality... the world IS cruel against anyone ... and that we have to deal with it...
Imagine... that you know when you're going to die... and the sickness that you have been infected... will you do the things that you want to do and say for a very long time... time is getting short and shorter.... when will it happen? I dont know... but hope is the best thing now... to wish for god to give some more time... I dont know what might happen the next time I open my eyes... It's something that I dont want to think about it...
Well... last night ... shit man... The waiter didnt told me that my drink have Liquor... and I drank it... I didnt get drunk... but I dont know what overtook me.... start to cry without a reason in the car... guess alcohol can turn people to feel soft...
Greenday - 21 Guns
Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
and you can never tell what would happen to your future... you just have to embrace it yourself...
Signing off
Jess's Bear
Imagine... that you know when you're going to die... and the sickness that you have been infected... will you do the things that you want to do and say for a very long time... time is getting short and shorter.... when will it happen? I dont know... but hope is the best thing now... to wish for god to give some more time... I dont know what might happen the next time I open my eyes... It's something that I dont want to think about it...
Well... last night ... shit man... The waiter didnt told me that my drink have Liquor... and I drank it... I didnt get drunk... but I dont know what overtook me.... start to cry without a reason in the car... guess alcohol can turn people to feel soft...
Greenday - 21 Guns
Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
and you can never tell what would happen to your future... you just have to embrace it yourself...
Signing off
Jess's Bear
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Songs that really touched me
Hinder- lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late?
Michael jackson- You are not alone
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone
All alone
Why, oh
Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Then something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone
Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
David Archuleta - You can ... ( this songs reminds me of her )
Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait
Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love
Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know
This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Show me that good things come
To those who wait
Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late?
Michael jackson- You are not alone
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone
All alone
Why, oh
Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Then something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone
Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
David Archuleta - You can ... ( this songs reminds me of her )
Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait
Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love
Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know
This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Show me that good things come
To those who wait
The Life We all have...
Yup... everyone's living their normal life... wake up, read newspapers, have breakfast, go to work/school/watever, and so on, so on. We all do our regular activities... but do you ever wonder? why we always have to follow all this regular routines? I mean its like we're test labs... and someone out there is watching us... as if the whole entire galaxy is just a box, where there are many other boxes that GOD created...
The day before yesterday horrors me.... the news write "ANGRY EARTH". Well, mothernature is releasing her wrath again..... why? because of some pricks who cut down trees and dont care about nature!! Sometimes... I really felt helpless... I wanted to help the WORLD... but sadly ... I'm not chosen by GOD... I'm just another failed creation who goes to school, hang out with friends and CANT EVEN MAKE A TOPIC!!!! man ... after college and university... I'm really leaving the state ... and go around the world.... I guess i need to find a new inspiration... Who knows ... maybe I wont survive... or live...
Time is running out on my life.... I felt sick and I dont think i have much time left in me ... and I dont know when will it happen... I want to do so much in my life... but every day it's getting shorter... and shorter... guess.... I really dont have the guts to tell the truth... THAT truth... I've been keeping it for a long time... and its best I keep it for myself rather than watching anyone of them carry my burden...
Haiz... guess its harder than I imagine... again I shed in tears ... not because of the song ... but my thought keep bugging me....
I dont have mood to write on anything now...
Signing off
Bear.
The day before yesterday horrors me.... the news write "ANGRY EARTH". Well, mothernature is releasing her wrath again..... why? because of some pricks who cut down trees and dont care about nature!! Sometimes... I really felt helpless... I wanted to help the WORLD... but sadly ... I'm not chosen by GOD... I'm just another failed creation who goes to school, hang out with friends and CANT EVEN MAKE A TOPIC!!!! man ... after college and university... I'm really leaving the state ... and go around the world.... I guess i need to find a new inspiration... Who knows ... maybe I wont survive... or live...
Time is running out on my life.... I felt sick and I dont think i have much time left in me ... and I dont know when will it happen... I want to do so much in my life... but every day it's getting shorter... and shorter... guess.... I really dont have the guts to tell the truth... THAT truth... I've been keeping it for a long time... and its best I keep it for myself rather than watching anyone of them carry my burden...
Haiz... guess its harder than I imagine... again I shed in tears ... not because of the song ... but my thought keep bugging me....
I dont have mood to write on anything now...
Signing off
Bear.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Late night post 2!!
I know ... I know... its like night and i still GOT time to blog and check facebook? but hey at least i'm not playing any game??
Well boys and girls, 2day is about "DO YOU WISH YOU KNOW THE FUTURE??" I wish I do T.T... I can make a profit out of it!! and dont nid to go school!! I can be the richest bastard in the WORLD!! LOLZ. okay here's the thing. some people think they REALLY can see the future!! okay... psychics can read people mind... and sometimes predict the future... but how de hell would they know it when its just made up?? Okay... if they can PROVE it then yeah... you might start saying "OMG TELL ME MY FUTURE!!!!" and ask stupid questions ... like EXAMPLE... jacky ask "will i be able to get the 1 i truly love??" or maybe ferik ask "will bears fly?" OR nasrul ask "can i fuck you?" (okay that was plain stupidity)...
but hell I wish I can know the future... its like having GOD'S gift in your arms ... and using it to do good.... (or bad, SORRY JESUS, but wats the good of it when u cant have fun?" XD.
okay ... this evening orphan ... u asked me that question right?? ... okay I have to admit... Idk how la... but when I look at yr face and eye... I got a HUNCH that u feel err... how u put this... disorientated?? .... okay lets just put it this way... TROUBLED. Its not that I'm LYING to u about it... just think it maybe be useless for me to say it... hmmm sorry orphan T.T
For those of u who STILL thinks me and audrey have a lil *STH* .... STOP BULLSHITTING AND THINK WE GOT SOME SORT OF RELATIONSHIP!!! OKAY??!!! WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!! BROTHER AND SISTER!!! THATS ALL TO SAY!!! PEACE OUT AMIGOS
Well boys and girls, 2day is about "DO YOU WISH YOU KNOW THE FUTURE??" I wish I do T.T... I can make a profit out of it!! and dont nid to go school!! I can be the richest bastard in the WORLD!! LOLZ. okay here's the thing. some people think they REALLY can see the future!! okay... psychics can read people mind... and sometimes predict the future... but how de hell would they know it when its just made up?? Okay... if they can PROVE it then yeah... you might start saying "OMG TELL ME MY FUTURE!!!!" and ask stupid questions ... like EXAMPLE... jacky ask "will i be able to get the 1 i truly love??" or maybe ferik ask "will bears fly?" OR nasrul ask "can i fuck you?" (okay that was plain stupidity)...
but hell I wish I can know the future... its like having GOD'S gift in your arms ... and using it to do good.... (or bad, SORRY JESUS, but wats the good of it when u cant have fun?" XD.
okay ... this evening orphan ... u asked me that question right?? ... okay I have to admit... Idk how la... but when I look at yr face and eye... I got a HUNCH that u feel err... how u put this... disorientated?? .... okay lets just put it this way... TROUBLED. Its not that I'm LYING to u about it... just think it maybe be useless for me to say it... hmmm sorry orphan T.T
For those of u who STILL thinks me and audrey have a lil *STH* .... STOP BULLSHITTING AND THINK WE GOT SOME SORT OF RELATIONSHIP!!! OKAY??!!! WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!! BROTHER AND SISTER!!! THATS ALL TO SAY!!! PEACE OUT AMIGOS
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