well... I got wat i wanted... a new phone.. technicily it wasnt wat I want -.-, now now, dont be choosy, this Sony Ericsson Aino, also not bad...

this is for those of u who dont know how it looks like =D

anyway... just got back from kl, well 1st day whole day sit on airplane and bus just to go to perak (KAMPUNG!) ... then sleep ZZZZ 2nd day was like.... where the fuck are we going? ... arrgghh forget it, I dont wan talk about the boring stuffs and WAT happen in kl!

I can say, that the blame was never on you, I was the stubborn 1 who always think I might have a chance with u.. when that night u and him explained.. u were crying while talking on the phone... idk anymore.. but after I hang up, I was thinking all the things that we done.... all the past came back to my mind.. but I wasnt sad, I somehow knew... deep inside, u would say that... urrghh, 4 hours sleep yesterday -.-, thanks to my parents snore and NOT letting me have my own room zzz, fuck.

Oh well... after 2day, its a fresh start... new beginning and work starts.... I know my SPM will be bad, how I know? I made it bad. AMEN.

Signing out,
Gary

holy !@#$

Don Mclean/ Josh Groban - Starry starry night (both of them sing this)
Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

love this song ~~ XD, this afternoon went to secret recipe ... celebrate with the prince and the princess (arthur and audrey, and they're not together, thank you.) and went to kbox (fuck.... rm164.8... T.T) yeah, sing lots of song.... enjoyed ourself and fun.... there's 1, no 2 songs that almost made me cry.... makes me think of the past again... but since its their birthday, let joy take over my tears of sorrowness....

and I dont know... seriously, I dont know... god, makes me think of how times past.... I really fucking regret of some stuffs (like not studyin account properly... etc, etc ) watever....

Signing off,
Gary

easier said than done...

Mario Winans - I dont wanna know

Mario Winans)
I just can't believe this, man.
Just another night of these thoughts.
Can't get this outta my head, yeah.

Somebody said they saw you.
The person you were kissing wasn't me.
And I will never ask you.
I just kept it to myself.

(Chorus)
I don't wanna know
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'cause my heart can't take it anymore.
and if you're creepin please don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.
(0hhhh, baby.)


I think about it when I hold you.
When lookin' in your eyes - I can't believe.
I don't need to know the truth.
Baby, keep it to yourself.

(Chorus)
I don't wanna know.
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
and if you're creepin', please, don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.


Did he touch you better than me? (Touch you better than me?)
Did he watch you fall asleep? (Watch you fall asleep, baby?)
Did he show you all those things? (0hhhh)
and the things you do to me (do to me, baby)
If you're better off that way,(Better off that way)
then it's more than I can say. (More than I can say)
If you want to do your thing,(Oh!)
Girl, then stay away from me.(Stay away from me, baby)


(P-Diddy)
I know when your where-abouts or how you movin'.
I know when you're in the house or when you crusin'.(uh-huh)
It's been proven - My love you abusin'.
I can't understand how a man got you choosin'.
Undecided, I came and provided my,
Undivided, you came and denied it.(Why)
Don't even try it I know when you lyin'. (Don't even)
Don't even do that I know why you cryin'.
I'm not applyin no pressure,
I just want to let you know,
That I don't want to let you go.(I don't want to let you go)
And I don't want to let you leave.
Can't say I didn't let you breath.
Gave you extra cheese. (come on)
put you in a SUV.
You wanted ice - so I made you freeze.
Made you hot like the West Indies.(That's right)
Now it's time you invest in me.
'Cause if not - then it's best you leave. (Holla, yeah)


(Mario Winans)
I don't wanna know.
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
And if you're creepin', please, don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
And if you're creepin', please, don't let it show.
(0hhhh baby)
I don't wanna know.


urgghh.... the pain on my chest start to come up again.... I dont know how long could I last... took some pills... but then, it just ease the pain... it wont remove the ever eternal pain inside of me...

one of my friend challenge me to get thin and have abs in 6 months (thin can... abs? like audrey said, 4 boleh la XD) hehehe.... well I havent know how to plan audrey's birthday.... *need backup*!!!

yeap... its either wednesday or thursday I go KL ... celebrate christmas with my grandparents... (father side) not too close to them.... and then ... going to do LOTS and LOTS of stuff @.@, buy my new handphone, clothes, christmas presents or souveniers for the gangs, watch avatar in 3d ~.~, and etc....

but... all this just for fun, still missing 1 more... haiz... never mind about that... like audrey said last night *Your future is in your hands* (malas write the rest) lolz sms with her till 2.24 a.m pula -.- wake up at 7.54... YAWN, still sleepy...zzzzz

ADIOS AMIGOS,
Gary

dying.....

I'M BORED TO DEATH!!!!

BEAT IT!! GARRR!!! I'M NOT GONNA LET ANY1 MESS WITH MY LIFE ANYMORE!! SICK OF IT! yeah... and I finnaly realised... it wasnt love, it was lust that took control of me... MAN, I'm such a loser... dont wan talk about it.... I'm gonna get my driving license soon!!! weeeeee!!!! drive everywhere, pick them up, have fun ~~~ den drink till we get drunk!! * who's gonna drive us home? * HAHAHAHAHA, I'm just excited cause my com is back from repair XXDD WWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! HIGH!!!!!!!

Survivor - Eye of the tiger
Risin' up, back on the street
Did my time, took my chances
Went the distance, now I'm back on my feet
Just a man and his will to survive
So many times, it happens too fast
You trade your passion for glory
Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
You must fight just to keep them alive

[Chorus:]
It's the eye of the tiger, it's
the thrill of the fight
Rising up to the challenge of our rival
And the last known survivor
stalks his prey in the night
And he's watching us all with the eye of the tiger

Face to face, out in the heat
Hangin' tough, stayin' hungry
They stack the odds, still we take to the street
For the kill with the skill to survive

[Chorus]

Risin' up, straight to the top
Had the guts, got the glory
Went the distance, now I'm not gonna stop
Just a man and his will to survive

[Chorus]

The eye of the tiger
[Repeats to fade out]

AFTER HEARING THIS SONG!!! I KNOW I CANNOT GIVE UP IN MY LIFE!! NO WAY IN HELL I WILL DO THAT!!! GAH!!! THANKS AUDREY FOR LAST NIGHT SMS XD

Some1 tell me why?

Do all this shit happen for a reason? or just because you've made a wrong choice .... I feel like all this happen because of a stupid reason... I dont know... I dont give a damn about it now... I dont even know whether I want to go KL, study at Taylor's college... or Sunway... or stay here... study lo, wat else.... *shish* right now I'm really dont know anything.... can any1 who read this blog tell me something meaningful? .... *shish* seriously...

Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

hmmmm.... hard choice

Finnaly I can change my phone again when I go to KL at chirstmas time~~ YAY but then there's a catch (why is there always *a catch*? beats me) my dad said "if u wan a new phone and driving lisence, you have to work at the office till u go college." Of course I can do that ... I think? XD anyways I checked the web and 2 phones caught my attention

Sony Ericsson Satio or Nokia X6? need  to decide.... HMMMMM

but I like both.... can I have both? (since I had 2 handphones on my disposal XD

Dont l8r he give me this answer...

  YOU CAN JUST SUCK MA BALLS!!!!

OMFG,WTF LA, if he give me that answer , no hope T.T

Ciao Y'all
Gary

Dreams, shits and giggles

James Blunt - You're beautiful...
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,(Real version)
Flying high,(clean version)
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.


yeah... this songs says it ... man.... I've been drinking again.... since I have no more vow... what can I do? just drink and die slowly better.... Haiz.... I thought life would be that simple, in fact... it's so fucking hard.... that moment make me realise ... life isnt easy, you have to suffer the pain... then rise up and do the right thing, I dont know if it true or not.

If God gave me a chance ... I would wish for time itself to rewind.... back to where I 1st saw her... then I would know what would happen and not make the same mistake twice... but, people, y'all know I'm talking bullshit here... (no1 read my blog... I'm just writing it to clear my thoughts)... these few nights I dreamt about sth ... the past and the future... the past... well I dont wanna talk about it, but the future was full of white faces? (non-clear images) I dreamt that there was a reunion party, I was wearing a black, slick suit~~ and I was thin and hot (WTF) XD just ... have the perfect body la... man, if that really happen in the future, I would be glad... but then, the girl next to me... was holding my hand, I looked at her but all I see is a white, unclear face... and then the next thing i realise I woke up and scream WWWWWHHHHHHHYYYYYY???!!!!!

Well it's a glimpse of the future... I hope its true.... lol, seriously... They found their prince charming/ princess beauty... and I havent yet, wtf WHY AM I THINKING OF THIS??!!! ARRGGGHHH ENOUGH!

Ciao y'all (if any1 is reading this...)
Gary

I dont know whether I'm DEAD OR NOT!!!!! ARRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! MY ACCOUNT!!! T.T. I'm so pissed..... God dammit... 3 more subjects, 8 more days to freedom, 30 days to the end of the year, and a whole 365 days to look forward to, after that~~~ hey, it rhyms XD

In case u dont get it, the landlord is the baby girl XD

Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat - Lucky
Do you hear me?
Talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets harder

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

wth.... just posting~~~

Signing off,
Gary