why do i even bother~~

oh god god god~~~, you can woop my ass all the way to kansas *or hell, like jacky said* but PLS!! give me a dam sign already!!!

1st of all, thank GOD! I can drive around kk without my parents in it -.-".
2nd, I passed my test... *I really hope my exam will be better*
3rd, brazil is in the last 8~~~~ *what, I know still early, but STILL!!*
4th, nice songs this few days... *what*
annddd 5th and the last of all... I think I'm getting the *job* done XD

yeap... last saturday went to 1b, wanted to watch movie alone, watch what? KNIGHT AND DAY~~, funny at 1st but yeah, the movie is fake *as always...* okay, where am I... oh, and then, a friend called me, idk why at 1st, I mean, I wanna watch alone, BUT yeah, end up watching with him.. after that, went to lunch, ask him about his life, exchange gossips, talks *boys talk~* and.. his problem, girl problem~~

okay, so this is how it goes, he told me that he's in love with a girl, but the girl is 4 years older than him *age doesnt matter* AND, she got a bf *it always happens...*, so yeah, where are we looking at now? a love triangle... *hmm* told me everything about it... and I gave him some advices *which also brings me back abit to the past, but its cool*

anyhow... I asked him some simple question.
1) Is she worth your time?
2) What is she to you?
3) Is she really the 1 for you?
4) You dont mind age differences?

Then, I gave him 1 question, "can you leave everything behind just for her?" what he said? "yes" but what is there to give up?

That is what I asked myself too, what is there to give up? you have nothing, nothing at all, being emo and down doesn't solve a goddamn problem. You think life is and could be easier? Well, then you're wrong, you're DAMN wrong, life is a challenge that GOD give us, a challenge to prove that we are strong in life, and that we can show our gratitude to him with this *sort of*

When I 1st heard some1 said "2 completely different person is a perfect couple?" I was like, "bullshit" now, I take that back...

okay... so that pentagon is reduced to square *god.. still...* idk... haha, its complicated.

Idk if you're reading this... but, all I want to say.. is thank you for the 2 years, you really changed me in those years... you meant alot to me, and now... that special feeling is gone... just wish we could stay as... friends, instead of total strangers... and I'm sorry, for everything... I know sorry isn't enough, but yeah...

Signing out,
Gary

Things just ... happens, i guess?

Wow... I dont know what is wrong with me this morning.. well 1st of all, Alfred and Ng wen fung, they were annoying me *yes... for the past 1 month* and... idk, I just popped out out of no reason, *volcano blowed off, pufff!!* funny thing is, the class went silence for like... 10 sec? and then make noise again.. *Miss jossy somehow didnt heard my scream* yeah... was it the heat that makes the limit gone off? or is it something else... hmm...

but there's other things that keep bothering me... college, friends, and love *why this?* OKAY... college... lately didnt really study alot for ITN and microeconomics.. *how am I suppose to pass...* teachers was less *incorperate* and yeah, teaching method? sorry to say, it really looks like SHIT!

Friends? well... inbalance as I can see... somehow its like... "gaining lots of new friends, and losing a handful of friends... best friends.." haiz.. I dont really like this... maybe starting a new life also means, letting go of old friends... pfft.. "THE WAY OF LIFE" my ass...

love? *what* I FEEL LIKE KNOCKING MY FREAKIN HEAD OFF THE WALL!!! there's 4, 4!!!! I MEAN, WTF!! am I going nuts? zzz, or is god giving me a choice here... *shish* look at me, I sound like a PIMP! Haiz... God help me... why I sound nervous? well... umm.... i dont know myself...

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)